Peek-a-Boo.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Heys..my turn to blog. =) Hmm.. Sotong's entry is really long. The longest entry he had ever wrote so far.. But, I think it's good larhs..so that I can know what really happen. Well, I am no longer angry like I said..cuz' sadness overwhelmed the anger. Even though I'm feeling better now as he assured me, I still need time to heal totally. I just want him to know that I rather he tells me the truth than to lie. I really trust him.. I hope my trust isn't abused again. Promises are not meant to be broken..so prove this right okays? =X Are you touched that I'm not so angry with you yet I forgive you so easily? Well, I don't know what's wrong with me as well.. but I guess I don't wanna keep this cold war going until the moment you left, it's still unsolved. I don't want any regrets and so, please do not mention anything gotta do with "ending your pain on the trip to Thailand if I'm leaving you" anymore... I want you to be safe and sound back to Singapore.. If you can't afford to lose me, then it'll be otherwise too. Take care of yourself be it for your own sake or for my sake.

Sigh. Sotong is so busy this week. I doubt I'll get to see him already. I said I won't meet him already...but my heart asked me to take back the words. Well, I really don't know. We shall see how. He is only free on Thursday if there ain't any change of jamming ? The only resting day for him..quite pathetic larhs. And, I miss him. How? =X He is leaving next monday liaos.. it'll be a ten days trip. No sms/no call I supposed? But, he said he'll sms back no matter what. I hope so..

Hmm.. so sians now. He sms me halfway again.. The last message was while he was bathing. Hmm..I guessed he probably got back to his guitar and then knock out, or if not, he just knock out right after the bath. Well, I have to bear with it. He'll sms me tomorrow de.. He's just tired alright? and therefore he knock out just like this.. Yeps. Jose can't be so reliant on Sotong already..because not only that there's a change in status but also he's really busy out there. Sigh. However, I still yearn to be like any girl out there..have a call from him every now and then, receive surprises occassionally, see him just whenever I like, sms like nobody cares etc.. Well, I guess I gotta stop dreaming for all these. The time has yet to arrive har.. =X Oh well, be independent Jose..! >.< ..

I ssim ouy Sotong.. tatas!

Impish Princess signed off`