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Saturday, October 22, 2005
I forgot to update yesterday... I think I'm busy smsing sotong and huiqing that's why...
Sigh. I'm in pain now.. really really pain. I think I can faint if I'm outside.. I hope the pain will end just today. Girls have to suffer over such things..so PATHETIC right? I woke up at 7am today when I slept at nearing 2am yesterday? The pain just woke me up... and after that I tried very hard to get back to sleep after eating the painkiller. I ate 2 tablets today~ cuz' while I'm typing this right now, I just ate another. God haven't take away my pain but at least it makes it comes at the right time... if not I guess I'll be groaning in pain at the chalet tomorrow. Hopefully, even as I attend service, I won't feel any pain already cuz' it's really distracting to worship God like this.. *perspiring* goSh` I'll bathe soon... pray that I don't faint in the washroom.
Actually there's nothing really much to blog about for yesterday other than the chat sotong and I had in the morning ? He called and I asked "who are you?" lols. *blur in the morning* He tricked me saying "This is calling from Ngee Ann Poly.. You haven't been enrolled to one of the modules..." What the hell?! OppS. hahs. Luckily, my brain is switched on after that... and I scolded him "you siao!" =P Well, a long chat discussing about some problems we're facing.. I guess it's just discussion and not any resolving yet. Hopefully, through all that we talked, it can be resolved..
Actually it's not that I really don't like Brighton. In fact, Brighton is really good... But, I guess I just cannot grow the fullest in this kind of environment? I don't deny I am growing but this is not the maximum I can go.. Certain values; certain restrictions; certain rules; certain obligations; certain many many things which I can't really figure out in just a few words ain't really convincing me fully... Sigh. So, sotong, it is not that I don't want. I feel that it's really stupid of me having to start the same old thing all over again when I ain't really ready yet? I understand all that you said and I don't deny it's considered a pretty good idea, but even if you keep asking me to come back, I'll only have pressure. This is not helping in any spiritual growth as well right? You shoot all the way out and I'm just too lost at words to rebuke or whatsoever. Yes, as promised, I've given a thought. And eventually, I figured out that we can continue to let things be for what it is(as I think this will be the most comfortable way for you and me?) until you've come back from studies in years to come. I promised you that I'll make the move? okays? I'll be moving back to Brighton with you to worship God together in the same church? when it's really the time. I need time and everything.. or perhaps by then, things may have changed over there and it'll just be more appropriate when I go back at that time. In CHC, I don't deny that I've to build up the sense of belonging again but I guess it'll be a matter of time? In there, there're many different ministries which the church encourages every single one of them to be serving in one area or another. Cell group is one ministry? And liked I told you, it's normally led by those more "adults" sisters and brothers. So, I believed that God's gift for me right now is that I can shower lots of lots of compassion and love to the young kids, I'll probably serving in this area? Or if not, I can still serve in many other ministries.. No matter what, I trust God for his plan? If I am to leave CHC for Brighton again one day, God has his greatest plan.. Right now, we have to juggle our spiritual life very well? And I know that you've many more committments next time, it's really difficult for you to manage your time as well. But liked I say, there're always many many inconvenient time for us. You have to learn to manage it well by hook or by crook still? The good thing is that you've promised to set a standard like every week once..even if you fail to do so, it won't be that bad overall right? It's like at least you won't go haywired? Sigh. Hopefully, it'll really be better larhs. Sigh *pain* Hymph` I think you must be thinking I'm so naggy right? But, I guess things have to be kept reminded for you..
About Calista, I better shut my mouth here.. =X But, I'm telling you that I mind I mind and I really mind. =X Anyway, I'm still thankful for your frank and truthful answer. That's the way it should be. Hmm..HOWEVER, I still remember you onced told me that you don't have.. I don't know if you still remember.. Well, I'll forget about that cuz' maybe at that point of time, you still haven't learn to be very truthful to me. Now you see how important it is? Hymph` I don't care.. you gotta build all the trust all over again. Be nice and good to me ... if not you si ding ler! =X
Alright, hopefully you read the mail as well.. take care.
SIgh` I'm still in pain...
impish princess signed off`
Sigh. I'm in pain now.. really really pain. I think I can faint if I'm outside.. I hope the pain will end just today. Girls have to suffer over such things..so PATHETIC right? I woke up at 7am today when I slept at nearing 2am yesterday? The pain just woke me up... and after that I tried very hard to get back to sleep after eating the painkiller. I ate 2 tablets today~ cuz' while I'm typing this right now, I just ate another. God haven't take away my pain but at least it makes it comes at the right time... if not I guess I'll be groaning in pain at the chalet tomorrow. Hopefully, even as I attend service, I won't feel any pain already cuz' it's really distracting to worship God like this.. *perspiring* goSh` I'll bathe soon... pray that I don't faint in the washroom.
Actually there's nothing really much to blog about for yesterday other than the chat sotong and I had in the morning ? He called and I asked "who are you?" lols. *blur in the morning* He tricked me saying "This is calling from Ngee Ann Poly.. You haven't been enrolled to one of the modules..." What the hell?! OppS. hahs. Luckily, my brain is switched on after that... and I scolded him "you siao!" =P Well, a long chat discussing about some problems we're facing.. I guess it's just discussion and not any resolving yet. Hopefully, through all that we talked, it can be resolved..
Actually it's not that I really don't like Brighton. In fact, Brighton is really good... But, I guess I just cannot grow the fullest in this kind of environment? I don't deny I am growing but this is not the maximum I can go.. Certain values; certain restrictions; certain rules; certain obligations; certain many many things which I can't really figure out in just a few words ain't really convincing me fully... Sigh. So, sotong, it is not that I don't want. I feel that it's really stupid of me having to start the same old thing all over again when I ain't really ready yet? I understand all that you said and I don't deny it's considered a pretty good idea, but even if you keep asking me to come back, I'll only have pressure. This is not helping in any spiritual growth as well right? You shoot all the way out and I'm just too lost at words to rebuke or whatsoever. Yes, as promised, I've given a thought. And eventually, I figured out that we can continue to let things be for what it is(as I think this will be the most comfortable way for you and me?) until you've come back from studies in years to come. I promised you that I'll make the move? okays? I'll be moving back to Brighton with you to worship God together in the same church? when it's really the time. I need time and everything.. or perhaps by then, things may have changed over there and it'll just be more appropriate when I go back at that time. In CHC, I don't deny that I've to build up the sense of belonging again but I guess it'll be a matter of time? In there, there're many different ministries which the church encourages every single one of them to be serving in one area or another. Cell group is one ministry? And liked I told you, it's normally led by those more "adults" sisters and brothers. So, I believed that God's gift for me right now is that I can shower lots of lots of compassion and love to the young kids, I'll probably serving in this area? Or if not, I can still serve in many other ministries.. No matter what, I trust God for his plan? If I am to leave CHC for Brighton again one day, God has his greatest plan.. Right now, we have to juggle our spiritual life very well? And I know that you've many more committments next time, it's really difficult for you to manage your time as well. But liked I say, there're always many many inconvenient time for us. You have to learn to manage it well by hook or by crook still? The good thing is that you've promised to set a standard like every week once..even if you fail to do so, it won't be that bad overall right? It's like at least you won't go haywired? Sigh. Hopefully, it'll really be better larhs. Sigh *pain* Hymph` I think you must be thinking I'm so naggy right? But, I guess things have to be kept reminded for you..
About Calista, I better shut my mouth here.. =X But, I'm telling you that I mind I mind and I really mind. =X Anyway, I'm still thankful for your frank and truthful answer. That's the way it should be. Hmm..HOWEVER, I still remember you onced told me that you don't have.. I don't know if you still remember.. Well, I'll forget about that cuz' maybe at that point of time, you still haven't learn to be very truthful to me. Now you see how important it is? Hymph` I don't care.. you gotta build all the trust all over again. Be nice and good to me ... if not you si ding ler! =X
Alright, hopefully you read the mail as well.. take care.
SIgh` I'm still in pain...
impish princess signed off`