Peek-a-Boo.

Monday, October 10, 2005

Well, yesterday was a bad day while today is really a superb one. =))) Hmm.. I don't know if anything will be up to upset me again, of course I hope it will be a "no", but if there's any, I just hope that it wouldn't be so fast..

Anyway, Sotong is leaving tomorrow at 6am. I guess I won't be able to see him until he's back to Singapore ten days later? I'll really really miss him badly.. But thank God no matter what, that he allows us to meet today. Even though a pretty short one at his place, I really appreciate it alot. Well, I gotta clarify that I said that I am happy not because of his 'naughty behaviour", but on the contrary, it did spice up quite abit of atmosphere for us. I don't really agree to these behaviours, but then again, it's rather thrilling and exciting larhs. =P I guessed I've never been into a toilet with a guy before? hahas. That's something new. But, we didn't bathe together! I didn't agree to it. =X hahas. His granny is really blur, we both walk to the toilet together she also seemed like she don't know... And, from this experience, I've also seen quite a bit of NEW STUFF. hahas. Living example!! I see how naughty he can get and then ahem ahem soar like an eagle!! *wahahax.. I shall sHhhHh* Stupid CKP said I'm CKM. I am not okays?!!! Don't know is who that asked me to be a doctor instead.. But funny larhs.. I said it was dirty & never wash. lols!! He stared at me and said "what??! nv wash??!" lols! Okays, no matter what it is, I think we really have our limits. We know what we should do and what we shan't. But then again, I'm the one setting the boundary most of the time? cuz' guys can't really think when they get so "high"~ Okays, enough~ at least I really have a good laugh at everything..at least I'm spending time with him..at least everything was as good as it can be before he leaves for Thailand.

Hmm.. I guess I'll really miss him alot alot.. And, if not for him who initiated to hug me, I guess I will still be marking a clear margin between him and me? I asked him "how can?" and obviously he won't know the answer yet it's really so stupid to ask him that question. His reply was "hmm..then how? (hugging me tight then)" Well, I seriously have no answer to that question I prompted as well. I just went to hug him tight as well right after that and he sort of gave me a "smirky smile"??! I guess we just break all the restrictions? And that we just go along with the feeling? It's already been 2 months.. 2 months that we acted like friends? God knows our heart isn't it? We really tried all our best to sacrifice willingly.. and this is something I'll never deny..cuz' I really did. I know that he did as well.. If not, we would have not made such a decision and then lasted it for 2 months like this?...Everything that happens today is God's will aas well..cuz' I believed that God already foresee what will happen. I just hope that as we carry on to follow our feelings, God will lead us and guide us... God, You just reveal more and more to us alright? If I really have to make a choice to ask for only one blessing from one person, I'll want God to be the first. Our love is God-centered. I wanted God to know it. Deep in my heart and his heart, we really put God first. Perhaps we haven't done alot to show it, we've already been trying really hard all this while. God, gives us your blessings...Amen!

Sigh.. I just hope that these ten days will fly.. I'll keep doing things to keep me packed.. Hopefully, it'll be a fruitful ten days even if it's without him. I believed that in my life, it ain't that plain and blunt yea? It'll be a most fulfulling one!! Yeah? Hmm..yeah..HOPE SO~

I'll miss you Dear.. Take care and all the best for your missions!! God bless you.. you have my blessings as well!!!! =)

Impish Princess signed off`