Peek-a-Boo.

Friday, December 02, 2005

After 2-3 weeks of "no meeting", it's just great to see sotong again.. At first, I was feeling rather odd perhaps because I need warm up after a period of time when I did not get to see him. Well, taking bus 14 to orchard gives me the nice sweet feeling as a mini-start off..

We watched a movie "Prime" just now. It's quite a sweet movie but "alil too much sexual events".. hahs~ Well, though we did not contact much to avoid troubles unnecessarily, we did not restrict ourselves that much in the theatre. It was sweet of him to really feed me popcorns one by one right into my mouth(cuz' I was rather lazy to eat already after eating for some time)... Small lil things like this really do brighten up my day. He's trying very hard to finish the popcorns and his mouth has been chewing for quite some time until it's alil tiring.. =X Not only that I know he wanted to finish it so that we don't waste food, he's trying to finish it fast so that he can keep me warm. I'm just so touched.. Everything went well; so fine so good. I just love his presence really lots..

But, it didn't end too well. I am a rather reserved person when it comes to cherishing moments to the fullest. I can be unusually quiet out of nowhere because I wanna keep this feeling going until we part.. However, sotong mistaken that I am just not bear to part with him and therefore I don't talk with him. It's true that I'm not willing to part, but it's not true that I don't wish to talk with him. Everything just went quite cold because there seemed to be a boundary between me and him. I know that it's dangerous to really open up our affections to each other, but afterall it's already almost time for us to part.. I just want a nice and happy ending. I'm sure he does wants it as well, but he misinterpret everything. This just comes to show that he don't know me inside out yet.. I am just fretting over spilt milk now. However, I know that I can't let it go that easily because it wasn't an ending which I want and it really bothers me cuz' of his misunderstanding. I wanted a "happily ever after" not a "sad ending"..we all want it but well, lets see what happens next time? I just hope that things remain so good so fine and may he really get to know me even better until we'll face no problem like this again.. It's just really upsetting to see such thing happens at the end of the day. Heartbroken and emptiness overwhelmed me since just now.. Glad that he made an effort to ask and it's a relief to me.. I'm feeling slightly better because he cares afterall..

darling Jose signed off`