`aisya
`anthony
`brenna
`chiasin
`daniel tan
`filly
`freddie
`gloria
`hubert
`huiqing
`ivan
`jieying
`joanne lee
`jowell
`joyce see
`junjie
`kangsheng
`kezia
`kwangwei
`lianhong
`leepeng
`marcus
`maureen
`pamela
`reeve
`ruikun
`sharon
`sherlyn
`thena
`wee cheong
`weimin
`xinyi
`xinyue
`yichang
`anthony
`brenna
`chiasin
`daniel tan
`filly
`freddie
`gloria
`hubert
`huiqing
`ivan
`jieying
`joanne lee
`jowell
`joyce see
`junjie
`kangsheng
`kezia
`kwangwei
`lianhong
`leepeng
`marcus
`maureen
`pamela
`reeve
`ruikun
`sharon
`sherlyn
`thena
`wee cheong
`weimin
`xinyi
`xinyue
`yichang
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Hmm.. I'm here again before I start mugging for my assignments. Actually, I don't know what can I say down here. But, I'm just inspired to blog right now.
Chinese New Year is almost over. Overall, I guess it's nothing really special unlike days when my cousins and I still mixed around. Now, we're all old and have our own things in life. But, that's not the main reason for not mixing around in CNY I guess. It's also because they need to visit somewhere else, and the timing all clashed. That's why it's also hard to go out together lo. I guess the 2 cousins who live near me and accepted christ not too long ago surely will have a common topic as me. We did talk about church stuffs together as a family.. *so happening* cuz' our parents were involved. Can you imagine? oh no. Yeah, it's not that bad, but it's not that good as well.
Imperfection lies in every single soul. However, I guess the hardest imperfection which girls have to accept is always "this". Comparing to being a drug addict, criminal or whatsoever, I still feel the most intolerable past is still "this". Even if you're willing to pacify me for a lifetime like you said, I really don't know if I'll get over it one day. Perhaps until the day we married, I realised I really do mind this past. I hope I can brainwash it away, but I guess this fact can never be eliminated out of my mind. You've done wrong and did me one injustice. During this period of time, I really need lots and lots of attention and trust to gain back what everything was used to be. Luckily, there's somebody who went through the same situation as me on the same day. If not, I guess I'll really break down? This past will haunt me forever. It is not because I don't love you and therefore I don't wanna accept this "you". It is because I love you too much that I can't make myself to believe that you were once like this. It's a stain which will stay down there forever. When can I ever overlook this one day? I really hope I'll cuz' you said you got a feeling I'll. Well, I know I'm so upset with this, but I've chose to try accepting it and move on.
God has tested the highest limit of my tolerance and love for you. I'm so sure that he did. But, I'm glad he did cuz' we're made strong from it. All I need is time now. Give me some time. I really need time. Sigh.
signed off`
Chinese New Year is almost over. Overall, I guess it's nothing really special unlike days when my cousins and I still mixed around. Now, we're all old and have our own things in life. But, that's not the main reason for not mixing around in CNY I guess. It's also because they need to visit somewhere else, and the timing all clashed. That's why it's also hard to go out together lo. I guess the 2 cousins who live near me and accepted christ not too long ago surely will have a common topic as me. We did talk about church stuffs together as a family.. *so happening* cuz' our parents were involved. Can you imagine? oh no. Yeah, it's not that bad, but it's not that good as well.
Imperfection lies in every single soul. However, I guess the hardest imperfection which girls have to accept is always "this". Comparing to being a drug addict, criminal or whatsoever, I still feel the most intolerable past is still "this". Even if you're willing to pacify me for a lifetime like you said, I really don't know if I'll get over it one day. Perhaps until the day we married, I realised I really do mind this past. I hope I can brainwash it away, but I guess this fact can never be eliminated out of my mind. You've done wrong and did me one injustice. During this period of time, I really need lots and lots of attention and trust to gain back what everything was used to be. Luckily, there's somebody who went through the same situation as me on the same day. If not, I guess I'll really break down? This past will haunt me forever. It is not because I don't love you and therefore I don't wanna accept this "you". It is because I love you too much that I can't make myself to believe that you were once like this. It's a stain which will stay down there forever. When can I ever overlook this one day? I really hope I'll cuz' you said you got a feeling I'll. Well, I know I'm so upset with this, but I've chose to try accepting it and move on.
God has tested the highest limit of my tolerance and love for you. I'm so sure that he did. But, I'm glad he did cuz' we're made strong from it. All I need is time now. Give me some time. I really need time. Sigh.
signed off`