Peek-a-Boo.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Sighs. Right now in school. What a bored day I would say. 8am lecture in the morning till 11am, but that's not all. I mean the timetable just sucks. I've to wait till 3pm for another 3hours tutorials later on. 4hours break interval, what is this?! hais. Then, after lunch today, I decided to go back home first. But, again I realised I'm dread of going back home. I'm not a homely person I guess. Home is just somewhere I will have to drag myself back everyday. I enjoy life outside much much better than being at home. Sighs. Okays, I'm alil too drifted. So, I smsed sotong whether I can visit him to kill time. It's nearly 12 approximately if I am not wrong. I don't know why, he took a hell lot of time to reply me. Maybe..it's my faulty sim card/handphone bahs? Hais. However, so as not to waste time, I already took a train to cityhall. I mean, I have no plans.. so I just take to cityhall first, but if he says I'm so welcomed..then why not just change a train from there to yck? but if it's a no then forget it lor. =X I must say I hate the feeling of camping at cityhall. It brought me lots of disastrous memories? hymph. Oh well, but then after 10 mins or so, I received a message saying something like "I was replying that by the time you come you need to go back le..haha..may as well slack around your area there..yup..and that I'll be practising guitar and watching sermons.." Well, I have absolutely nothing to say at that moment. I just replied "Ok", but thinking in my heart "true not much time, but I jave 1 hour at least before I leave his place". Anyways, it doesn't matter, after what he said, I took the green line instead to go back to dover? and here I am in school after taking bus 74. I wonder did I miss out any message of his again? Cuz' by right, he should reply something, but till now..haven't seems to receive any. My handphone sucks! argh. Well, but after reading the message of his again, I have something in my mind..that is.. "if i have somewhere around my place to slack..why would I wanna find him manx?" Sighs. I just hate the feeling of being rejected and let alone. This is why.. many times..despite how much I want something, I just choose to keep quiet..cuz' say ler also no use mahs! =( Nevermind, so be it.. I'm back school right now. I guess this is much like a loner life .. waiting for time to pass by alone.. Saddening case. Always, I feel a sense of emptiness.. actually not so much of loneliness but, EMPTINESS. Do you know what's that? It's just like you can have something, but you're lacked of it. It's so unlike loneliness whichby you just have nothing and you got no choice at all..you won't even have the chance to lack something. hais. To be positive, should I say... "at least I'm one level higher? it's only emptiness not loneliness.." Sighs. Well..

For the past few days, I haven't been sleeping very much. I admit, it's not that I can't sleep, it's just that I'm not willing to sleep. But, it's a very common habit of mine already. I think I just can't sleep early despite how free I am. Hymph. And so, for 3 consecutive days, I slept less than 5 hours everyday. But, other than doing non-meaningful stuffs like onlining for sun and mon, the time spent yesterday was truly satisfying and meaningful. Well, it's all over. Anyways..I'm getting alil slight headache and body ache. It's just some symptoms of fever. But I think I won't be so suey bahs.. =X God bless my health though.

Currently, 2.17pm.. around half an hour more to go. I just have to say..that's life. Despite all the ups and downs throughout your life, you'll still be unexpectedly saddened by all these. Despite knowing the sad times will come, you'll still feel sad. Preparation of ones heart doesn't seems to work huhs..? I must say..

signed off`