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Saturday, July 08, 2006
time for update.
it's a fine day overall. i wouldn't say it's superb but at least it ended off well. i have lots of thoughts striking past my mind, but i think it's not good to put them out verbally. i think i still convey a message better through words when it comes to matters of the heart(particularly things which has kept me pondering, but don't really know how exactly it goes).
well, sometimes i question myself whether i am holding on to the wrong doctrine? but, i really do have confidence in myself for holding on to certain beliefs. perhaps i really trusted my own feelings and encounters alot more than using something like "statistics". perhaps i related to statistics through my own feelings? i don't know if i'm accurate in what i say, but i do believe that it can't be that that wrong anyway.
why prompts me to think all these? yeah, i just happen to ask myself whether i am so right afterall, after what happened on (friday). i mean.. i'm always the one who always talk sense to people, hardly other way round. so, this really kept me wondering whether i'm so wise to talk sense to people? do i really have what it takes? or i'm just unknowingly wrong about what i've in me to tell people what to do?
i'll continue typing tomorrow.. shall save this draft.
alright. here to continue my blog after 2 days. oh well, these two days have been a mixed feeling for me. I mean I just had some weird feelings which is undescribable, seemingly a bad thing is gonna happen soon? i don't know, it's just some bad omen thingy? i haven't been feeling very comfortable with things and people these days.. i don't know why either. who can give me an answer?
one of the matter which don't bother me but keeps me thinking is about her? i mean i don't understand quite abit of stuffs over here. i just feel that things may not be as simple as it can be. somehow somewhat.. i nearly can't believe that this girl can be so goosebumpy to a guy whom she has a crush on yet seemingly treating him as a brother in christ. i mean.. use logic to think, how would a girl be able to refrain from expressing her love (subconsciously) to a guy whom she likes ? i mean, from what i read, i don't get the feeling of concerns from a sister in christ? more like a secret admirer talking to her favourite guy. well, but he doesn't seem to feel it's goosebump on his side. at least, cuz' i'm a girl and therefore i know some sms language that can be possibly used in this kind of situation. so much of "dear brother" "dear sotong" (seems exaggerating to me, wassup with that 'dear' over there. i mean girls..do u agree that it's abit out of our language when we talk to guy friends?) and "just remember that i'll be there for you no matter what happens" (which doesnt sound suitable from a sister in christ). alright, lets explore the possible way to express this to a brother in christ.
"just know that you're not alone? we're all here for you."
"feel free to come to me when you have problem, i'll be here"
get what i mean? there should be a kind of invisible barrier between both of them which make them a brother/sister in christ of each other. it just sounds weird to look at all these goosebumpy and mushy mushy words from a GOOD FRIEND of an opposite sex.
well, those biblical context is indeed encouraging and that is perfectly fine. i totally don't feel anything's wrong with other things other than how she phrased her sentences sometimes (sounds like she is his girlfriend). i know myself very well that i won't get jealous and too sensitive easily. but, since this time i felt something not so right, i utterly perfectly totally agree to my intuition WHILE in a clear state of mind.
besides this, i really hope that God has place me beside him to help him in his spiritual and physical growth. but somehow, i find it hard when i see him getting so pessimistic. i feel helpless sometimes. and satan must had tried so hard to fly a thought across my mind. "s*e*r*i*e" seems to do a better job than you" yah, fine, even if so, i accept it. i mean, i do think that she's can be better in terms of relating to him in his music realms or even as a pillar support for him. kind of disappointing i can't? i'm still recovering from the discouragement from that realm..other than this, how much do i know about guitar which i considered my *rival* sometimes. i share the same passion but with limitation of knowledge and experience. yah, they are more matched if i were to compare their music life. don't get the wrong idea, i'm not jealous or whatsoever, just that all these words came past my mind and i'm just typing like nobody cares. it's all predestined according to God's plan. i shouldn't be trying to change how the flow goes.. well.. i shall just let nature takes it flow.
and well, i haven't get started with my jap homework yet. i better get started soon. i haven't been studying for the test as well. argh. doomed.
World Cup's hot these days huhs. once in 4 years, no wonder people are all crazy about it. but, i don't watch. i don't seem to enjoy WC so much, but it'll be better if i conform to the trend and get alil involved somehow. argh. if not, i'm really outdated when people are keng-kai-ing about WC. what a disgrace somehow?! hymph. but i'm still not so interested. perhaps i won't mind watching if i'm with a group of friends, staying overnight somewhere. but if i were to catch it alone, be ready for a sleepyhead even before the match starts. oh well. enough said, i'll stop here.
signed off`
it's a fine day overall. i wouldn't say it's superb but at least it ended off well. i have lots of thoughts striking past my mind, but i think it's not good to put them out verbally. i think i still convey a message better through words when it comes to matters of the heart(particularly things which has kept me pondering, but don't really know how exactly it goes).
well, sometimes i question myself whether i am holding on to the wrong doctrine? but, i really do have confidence in myself for holding on to certain beliefs. perhaps i really trusted my own feelings and encounters alot more than using something like "statistics". perhaps i related to statistics through my own feelings? i don't know if i'm accurate in what i say, but i do believe that it can't be that that wrong anyway.
why prompts me to think all these? yeah, i just happen to ask myself whether i am so right afterall, after what happened on (friday). i mean.. i'm always the one who always talk sense to people, hardly other way round. so, this really kept me wondering whether i'm so wise to talk sense to people? do i really have what it takes? or i'm just unknowingly wrong about what i've in me to tell people what to do?
i'll continue typing tomorrow.. shall save this draft.
alright. here to continue my blog after 2 days. oh well, these two days have been a mixed feeling for me. I mean I just had some weird feelings which is undescribable, seemingly a bad thing is gonna happen soon? i don't know, it's just some bad omen thingy? i haven't been feeling very comfortable with things and people these days.. i don't know why either. who can give me an answer?
one of the matter which don't bother me but keeps me thinking is about her? i mean i don't understand quite abit of stuffs over here. i just feel that things may not be as simple as it can be. somehow somewhat.. i nearly can't believe that this girl can be so goosebumpy to a guy whom she has a crush on yet seemingly treating him as a brother in christ. i mean.. use logic to think, how would a girl be able to refrain from expressing her love (subconsciously) to a guy whom she likes ? i mean, from what i read, i don't get the feeling of concerns from a sister in christ? more like a secret admirer talking to her favourite guy. well, but he doesn't seem to feel it's goosebump on his side. at least, cuz' i'm a girl and therefore i know some sms language that can be possibly used in this kind of situation. so much of "dear brother" "dear sotong" (seems exaggerating to me, wassup with that 'dear' over there. i mean girls..do u agree that it's abit out of our language when we talk to guy friends?) and "just remember that i'll be there for you no matter what happens" (which doesnt sound suitable from a sister in christ). alright, lets explore the possible way to express this to a brother in christ.
"just know that you're not alone? we're all here for you."
"feel free to come to me when you have problem, i'll be here"
get what i mean? there should be a kind of invisible barrier between both of them which make them a brother/sister in christ of each other. it just sounds weird to look at all these goosebumpy and mushy mushy words from a GOOD FRIEND of an opposite sex.
well, those biblical context is indeed encouraging and that is perfectly fine. i totally don't feel anything's wrong with other things other than how she phrased her sentences sometimes (sounds like she is his girlfriend). i know myself very well that i won't get jealous and too sensitive easily. but, since this time i felt something not so right, i utterly perfectly totally agree to my intuition WHILE in a clear state of mind.
besides this, i really hope that God has place me beside him to help him in his spiritual and physical growth. but somehow, i find it hard when i see him getting so pessimistic. i feel helpless sometimes. and satan must had tried so hard to fly a thought across my mind. "s*e*r*i*e" seems to do a better job than you" yah, fine, even if so, i accept it. i mean, i do think that she's can be better in terms of relating to him in his music realms or even as a pillar support for him. kind of disappointing i can't? i'm still recovering from the discouragement from that realm..other than this, how much do i know about guitar which i considered my *rival* sometimes. i share the same passion but with limitation of knowledge and experience. yah, they are more matched if i were to compare their music life. don't get the wrong idea, i'm not jealous or whatsoever, just that all these words came past my mind and i'm just typing like nobody cares. it's all predestined according to God's plan. i shouldn't be trying to change how the flow goes.. well.. i shall just let nature takes it flow.
and well, i haven't get started with my jap homework yet. i better get started soon. i haven't been studying for the test as well. argh. doomed.
World Cup's hot these days huhs. once in 4 years, no wonder people are all crazy about it. but, i don't watch. i don't seem to enjoy WC so much, but it'll be better if i conform to the trend and get alil involved somehow. argh. if not, i'm really outdated when people are keng-kai-ing about WC. what a disgrace somehow?! hymph. but i'm still not so interested. perhaps i won't mind watching if i'm with a group of friends, staying overnight somewhere. but if i were to catch it alone, be ready for a sleepyhead even before the match starts. oh well. enough said, i'll stop here.
signed off`