`aisya
`anthony
`brenna
`chiasin
`daniel tan
`filly
`freddie
`gloria
`hubert
`huiqing
`ivan
`jieying
`joanne lee
`jowell
`joyce see
`junjie
`kangsheng
`kezia
`kwangwei
`lianhong
`leepeng
`marcus
`maureen
`pamela
`reeve
`ruikun
`sharon
`sherlyn
`thena
`wee cheong
`weimin
`xinyi
`xinyue
`yichang
`anthony
`brenna
`chiasin
`daniel tan
`filly
`freddie
`gloria
`hubert
`huiqing
`ivan
`jieying
`joanne lee
`jowell
`joyce see
`junjie
`kangsheng
`kezia
`kwangwei
`lianhong
`leepeng
`marcus
`maureen
`pamela
`reeve
`ruikun
`sharon
`sherlyn
`thena
`wee cheong
`weimin
`xinyi
`xinyue
`yichang
Monday, October 16, 2006
oh my.. it's only monday. good thing tuesday is coming. i'm really counting down to the day i can see my dearest sotong. tomorrow will be a short day as well. i guess i probably can start planning my time to start giving tuition. it's a way to earn money and SPEND money. love it!
i bought a zara top today. haha. pretty satisfied with my choice cuz' it's something new in my wardrobe. i have a few long tops like this, but it's just not so fitting like this one. =)) i'm looking forward to MORE shopping. hopefully when sotong is out, we can have some shopping sprees. hymph.
suddenly, i just can't stop feeling for my friends. like kezia & rebecca. kezia's wise.. i mean.. there's nothing much we can do about it. i can only stuck down here think and think and think.. and then get alil emo over what had already happened and that's about it. rebecca? somehow this feeling has never pop out for quite some time already. i mean the kinda "argh" feeling between niap and her.. if you get it? hmm.. i remembered my impression of niap wasn't really good right from the beginning. after that, it became better and better. and during those times, i'll really give them ALL my blessings. but recently, i just felt in my heart that niap somehow isn't the best person for rebecca. even though he's somebody who can lead and guide rebecca, his chuinivistic trait is really untolerable sometimes. it's just like he don't give a damn to rebecca's feeling and like what rebecca said "he uses his brain then his heart" instead of what normally people would do "heart then to brain". sometimes, it's really better for us to pause for a moment to use our heart to feel for people before we use our brains to give all sorts of rebuttal and reasonings? it's like a computer.. we have to configure the system before getting the system on. configure = using your heart to feel for the situation and people. getting the system on = start using your brain to talk sense out of it. also, rebecca is definitely somebody who needs to be scolded so that she will wake up that kind.. and niap seems to be a perfect match for this part. but, it just hurts me to see her getting scolded and being rant at..every now and then? i'm all so neutral now. i don't agree to his ways but i somehow have to accept that it does helps rebecca in a way. what should i do about my heart-felt feelings for rebecca? i just don't wis rebecca to be manipulated every now and then. i wish that rebecca wouldn't be stuck between what niap wants her to do and what she oughts to do.. oh well..
hmm.. i'm feeling alot for myself as well. i don't know what exactly am i feeling.. but i just know that i seem to have so many passing thoughts which make me daze. what kinda thoughts? i don't really know.
relationships among people are so frail. it may be happy for this moment, but it don't guarantee happiness forever. you may be sure this moment, you may not the next moment. you may be with this person now, you never know what happens in future. you may think that it should be this way, but reality turns out the other way round. you may feel that love endures forever, but how can you be certain that it is love? and so, what will happen if you took a step wrongly right in the beginning? should you have any regrets because of all these 'illusions'? maybe yes may no. argh. this is how confusing my mind is right now. tell me what to do. let nature takes its course? what if things weren't meant to be like this but cuz' you procrastinated altering the better ending which you possibly can receive? what if you have realised earlier..would things be better? arghhhh.. this is gettin' me all vex up.
hope that my life is always the way it should be.
sign off`
i bought a zara top today. haha. pretty satisfied with my choice cuz' it's something new in my wardrobe. i have a few long tops like this, but it's just not so fitting like this one. =)) i'm looking forward to MORE shopping. hopefully when sotong is out, we can have some shopping sprees. hymph.
suddenly, i just can't stop feeling for my friends. like kezia & rebecca. kezia's wise.. i mean.. there's nothing much we can do about it. i can only stuck down here think and think and think.. and then get alil emo over what had already happened and that's about it. rebecca? somehow this feeling has never pop out for quite some time already. i mean the kinda "argh" feeling between niap and her.. if you get it? hmm.. i remembered my impression of niap wasn't really good right from the beginning. after that, it became better and better. and during those times, i'll really give them ALL my blessings. but recently, i just felt in my heart that niap somehow isn't the best person for rebecca. even though he's somebody who can lead and guide rebecca, his chuinivistic trait is really untolerable sometimes. it's just like he don't give a damn to rebecca's feeling and like what rebecca said "he uses his brain then his heart" instead of what normally people would do "heart then to brain". sometimes, it's really better for us to pause for a moment to use our heart to feel for people before we use our brains to give all sorts of rebuttal and reasonings? it's like a computer.. we have to configure the system before getting the system on. configure = using your heart to feel for the situation and people. getting the system on = start using your brain to talk sense out of it. also, rebecca is definitely somebody who needs to be scolded so that she will wake up that kind.. and niap seems to be a perfect match for this part. but, it just hurts me to see her getting scolded and being rant at..every now and then? i'm all so neutral now. i don't agree to his ways but i somehow have to accept that it does helps rebecca in a way. what should i do about my heart-felt feelings for rebecca? i just don't wis rebecca to be manipulated every now and then. i wish that rebecca wouldn't be stuck between what niap wants her to do and what she oughts to do.. oh well..
hmm.. i'm feeling alot for myself as well. i don't know what exactly am i feeling.. but i just know that i seem to have so many passing thoughts which make me daze. what kinda thoughts? i don't really know.
relationships among people are so frail. it may be happy for this moment, but it don't guarantee happiness forever. you may be sure this moment, you may not the next moment. you may be with this person now, you never know what happens in future. you may think that it should be this way, but reality turns out the other way round. you may feel that love endures forever, but how can you be certain that it is love? and so, what will happen if you took a step wrongly right in the beginning? should you have any regrets because of all these 'illusions'? maybe yes may no. argh. this is how confusing my mind is right now. tell me what to do. let nature takes its course? what if things weren't meant to be like this but cuz' you procrastinated altering the better ending which you possibly can receive? what if you have realised earlier..would things be better? arghhhh.. this is gettin' me all vex up.
hope that my life is always the way it should be.
sign off`