Peek-a-Boo.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

went to goodwood hotel today for a birthday party. sotong's mum asked me to join them for a buffet yesterday. the birthday boy is also from CHC. we managed to get into a conversation after the buffet and i was feeling rather comfortable unlike the very beginning. it's so long i haven't step into such high class places..and besides..i don't really know anybody there. i was just wondering why are there so many celebrations for his family.. is it a 'must' to celebrate for every single occassion? and so he said it's cantonese style. indeed very cantonese..all the uncles and aunties speak in cantonese, chinese & english. oh man.. i really find that sotong's father side all very rich lah! damn.. i feel so low class over there. haha.

alright, sotong's parents are really treating me really good. the dad is always asking if i wanna eat this and that.. and encourage me to eat more and more. he bought a strawberry mango cake from goodwood hotel for me before we left..while he bought 6 durian puffs which i wouldn't fancy for the whole family. haha. it's so fun to talk with the family.. i feel so homely.. and i hope that i'm adding joy to the family as well. why do i have a feeling that they will spend a bomb on me over the coming years (if i'm still with him)?? i just have this feeling that they won't mind spending on me.. =X

it's been a nice day until the moment came to provoke me over small lil matter. i know it's just trivial matter which i shan't take it to heart, but oh man.. i just couldn't stop getting upset over it. a short sentence as such will make me so down..i'm not really angry but sad. for a moment, i just felt the pressure from my tear glands. it's just such a small matter, i feel silly of myself if i were to cry over it. so sick?! argh. he couldn't stop apologising, but apology ain't the remedy to my heart somehow. just felt so down all the way.. even in the car when he was gonna report to the interchange. and here it ended like this..and his parents drove me back home. i slept in the car as it was a long car ride..about 30minutes? he did call after he left the car, asking me to forgive him and all that.. and so i replied in short sentences or 1-2 words cuz' so many people will be hearing our conversation if i were to say any more things. yep, i'll be waiting for his call at 9 plus or 10.

luckily tomorrow is already wednesday. phew. i think i've been spending too many days with him till i can't get used to it again. oh well... saturday he will come out again. i kind of look forward to it this time. i just wanna enjoy my weekends with him. argh. i have to push him to church on saturday as well.. hopefully he will go as promised! i know i am not doing as well as i should, but at least i don't have the thought of leaving church lah. i will make it through!! this storm will be over soon..

animation class tomorrow! i still find it too long..though this time we won't be spending time using computer. instead, we'll be drawing for 3 hours and having 1 hour of lecture. 3 hours of drawing? still too long for me.. even though it's much appealing than sitting infront of the computer slacking and doing things at our own time own target. yeah, hope that thurday and friday will fly faster.. cuz' i think friday seems to fly so slowly for this semester.. it's really darn boring for most of the lessons. =X

alright, that's all.