Peek-a-Boo.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

i have been rather busy, i should say VERY busy. moodswings faster than ever. feeling down more frequently. MAJOR headaches keep pestering me.

i have 4 major projects on going, haven't even clear any of them up to date. time is so limited that i almost suffocate along the week. argh.

YET!..

peopleSSSS are really irritating me, without using their brains well enough.

sorry to say this, be it intentional or unintentional, they're really quite a bunch of insensitive people. i just don't understand why am i giving my best to people who don't stand in my shoes all the time.

i understand their situation, but why can't they even spare a thought for me. friends, sometime you really need to be professional in every aspect of your life. you need to keep up to your promise, at the very least, TRY to keep it up by giving an attempt before you said you can't.

fair enough, they have good reasons to back them up. i can't say much as well right? oh well..

up next, i feel really irritated when i'm being treated like SHIT. as in, if you really have already made a decision, then why do you bother to tell me? i don't need you to inform for the sake of inform. i need you to make an agreement with me cuz' it involves me! if you really just wanna inform and instruct, forget about it. seriously annoying when i'm treated like a toy. when you need me, you'll call for me. when you don't need me, you don't give a shit. that's damn irritating, making me steam up..

that was my week. and as from tomorrow onwards, i have another tough 7 days to endure with. at least for this week, it'll be so. i don't know about next week, but i hope it'll be slightly better as i thought.

i seriously feel that my eyes got some problems, maybe i'm going blind or something. the area above my right eye, around eyebrow area.. it's hurting so much that when i pressed, i feel the pain as well. it's like internal pain.. so pain that i couldn't concentrate on doing things. i feel weak and lethargic.. really like my body system breaking down any sooner. just a feeling that i have some eye problem? maybe cancerous stuffs? or tumour within? argh. nevermind. maybe i'm thinking too much, but it's just a feeling which i've been having all these times..recently.

oh yah, i went to uncle leong seafood to have crabs and some other dishes. cuz' sotongs' parents wanted to join (out of expectation), we had more dishes and we don't have to pay a single cent. the chilli crabs don't turn out as fantastic as i thought.. still, the one at chinatown seemed the best so far. hmm.. but it wasn't that bad lah. it's still nice and i ate most of them among the 4.

well well well, so sick and tired of schooling and facing shitty people adding on to my stress and affecting my mood. so so so wish that i can have a break immediately. i have so many things i wanna do. i feel that i'm so tied up with work till i can't enjoy life. and that feeling sucks !

sigh. devils are waiting to crucify me! angels, buck up!