i've been moody and grumpy these days.
for people who do not know what happened yet,
it's unavoidable that one day you guys will know.
i guess it's a chain that i'll have to repeat on and on..
a chain of disappointment and anguish.
a chain that couldn't be avoided.
a chain that will make me remember for a period of time.
not so soon that i'll forget,
but i'm trying to find the drive and motivation back.
as they said, it's part and parcel of life.
i can't blame no one but mr unfortunate.
right now, i just need people who know to tell me
'josephine, i understand your situation totally. i believe you.'
especially to hear this from 'them',
that's all i need.
cuz' from the beginning till the end,
i am unable to make anybody fully convinced, fully understand me.
i can't blame people,
as it's hard to stand in a person's shoes
unless you have once been through it.



thank you baby for standing by me, cheering me on.
i thought that nobody will be able to make me forget momentarily,
as this time.. it's just too much, too much.. for me,
yet you still managed to.
at least, i feel a glimpse of hope and joy through you.
at least, i can finally put down my burden and worries,
to forget even for a few seconds.
even for a while, just for that few moments..
i still wanna thank you for all that you have done for me.

loves

10:25 PM •