you know i hate people who give me 'you know you have to.." kinda look.
it's just irritating to see them flashing these faces at me,
making it as though i'm the cause of everything.
well, i met one today.
i dread to see him anyway.
i see his coming,
i kind of expected this expression,
but i still hate it.
just as i am,
i showed my mere unhappiness,
but i appeared to be smiley most of the time.
if he don't feel a single bit,
it's a lie.
but who cares.

alright, deep down inside of me,
other than just resent and dislike,
i do have feelings of devastation.
it brought back so much bad memories.
i mean it's still coming up to me even up till now.
why do i have to keep meeting such insensitive people?
so what if it was so?
do you have to keep reminding me?!
darn.
just imagine yourself having to be reminded of some nasty incidents again and again.
forgodden sake,
it's not once, twice or thrice.
it's not even numerous.
it's like a chain..countless.
YES,
"thank you" for reminding me even if you don't mean it.

i feel like just having a brainwash session.
my heart needs a break from all these heavy rocks too.

afterall all, i need just a break.
good food still cheers me up.. a little. just a little for now.


thought of the day: losing myself away..

12:40 AM •